Once Jesus was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God was coming, and he answered, “The kingdom of God is not coming with things that can be observed; nor will they say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or ‘There it is!’ For, in fact, the kingdom of God is among you.”
If the kingdom of God is among us then why am I such a mess? I’m sure that there are many theologically sound answers to that question, unfortunately, I’m not a theologian, so all I can do is ponder and pray and hope that something, comes to me. Maybe that’s the point. Maybe the kingdom of God is among us when we pray and ponder the kingdom of God.